Stuck

Why can i not figure out what to do with my life. I need to find the next step to the stairwell, yet in the dark and musky night i loose tracking of my footing. I slip and fall. Sit and ponder. "What shall I do" and as i do this a great gult sinks in. I am cursed and left bewildered. The hands that once reached out to me now long gone.

I need to become independant but i dont know what to do to get there.